To be honest living so far away hasn’t been as awful as I had imagined. Technology has made staying in touch with friends and family so much easier with things like Skype. But since I have this wonderful Apple invention called an iPhone I also have FaceTime and Viber which allows for free international calling. Not to mention I also have Facebook, Instagram, and emails. Wow with so many modes of communication it’s hard to keep up with everything.
I haven’t felt the true sadness of being in a totally different country until my brother was in the hospital and I felt helpless. My family means the world to me and when they hurt my heart is broken. I remember the first time David had surgery on his arm when he was young. I was there for the recovery. When I was in college David underwent two more arm surgeries. And even though I wasn’t around for those I felt okay knowing I was a quick flight away if I needed to be home. This time was different.
I get to talk a lot about all the amazing things I’ve been able to do over here and I have loved all those parts. It’s harder to talk about the experiences of sadness you have when you live away from those people you love the most. I knew before coming over here I would miss out on things. Like one of my best friends Lauren’s wedding. Other small things like birthdays, holidays and games. These I have learned I can deal with pretty well.
I realized how much it hurt to be away when David was in the hospital this last time. One big reason was not knowing what was wrong. After the doctors figured out what it was my mind was more at ease but the pang in my heart for not being able to hold my little brothers hand or hug my mom and dad was felt everyday he was in the hospital.
God gives all of us an amazing gift of being loved by those around us. It is a small glimpse of the way He loves ALL of us on this earth. David has always been a light in darkness for me. He is so strong in his walk and even in times of great adversity trusts in Gods plan. Even from thousands of miles away he was my constant reminder that God has it all under control. He kept saying don’t worry sister I am alright. It was hard for me to understand why God keeps putting David though these trials. I had to re-read Romans to remind myself that God takes care of those who love Him.
And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose
I am not sure what Gods purpose for David’s life is. But it is because of David I remember that no matter what comes our way God has it under control.
I love you David near or far you’ll always be my most favorite little brother.