Have you ever had a lot to say but just cant seem to find the words? If you have, then you know exactly how I feel and it is totally frustrating.
Lately I have been experiencing a serious case of writers block. Life has been pretty normal and I just haven’t been in the mood to write. We are heading down to Melbourne this weekend to celebrate our wedding with Alex’s Greek family- I am hoping that will spark my fingers to find the words more easily.
Words can be a double edged sword because they have infinite ways of touching us- they can hurt, they can put a smile on your face, and they can inspire us. Not only that but some sentences really strike a chord with one person and is meaningless to the next. Writing for me has always been therapeutic, I have kept journals since I was really young. Reading them now makes me gag because 11/12 year olds really don’t have any clue what life is really like and they aren’t usually supposed to, so I wrote about cute boys, friends and being annoyed at my parents.
Now though I have so much more to say because I have experienced so much more than 11 year old Abby could have imagined. I went away to college when I was 18 then transferred to a different college half way though. I studied-A LOT. I moved in with friends- I moved out to my own apartment. I lost my amazing grandfather too soon. My faith has been tested time and again. I worked a bunch of different jobs. I made friends- I lost friends. I traveled. I learned to appreciate my family more. I moved to a different country, traveled some more. Met a guy named Alex- got engaged, got married. Worked with the Australian government to get a permanent visa. Moved into our first home. Learned what its really like to be a housewife. Struggled to find a job. Most of all I learned life is totally unexpected sometimes.
I have been though a lot in my 25 years and writing has always helped me get through the highest highs and lowest lows. Writing is something I really love but sometimes it just doesn’t come easily. Sometimes my thoughts are too jumbled up or too unfocused and thats whats been happening lately. I need that beautiful inspiration to get my words right.
I promise I will- be patient with me the words are all up in my head they just need to find their way to my fingers, because I sure do have a lot to say.